Tuesday, January 13, 2009

No More Peanut

Sighs...I'm at school, so can't write much during what's left of my lunch break.

Had yesterday (Mon.) off work. Went for more bloodwork. Called OB for ER follow-up. They said they'd rather see me Tues so they could have the bloodwork results from Monday to compare with bloodwork from Friday.

Didn't really need to have the day off then. Oh well. Went coat shopping...bought a new jacket and had some "me" time. Was able to spend 2 hours of uninterrupted phone time with MaryAnn---a luxury for both of us!

This morning went to OB for follow up. Met with Sherry the nurse practitioner at OB's office. She attempted ultrasound. Again could see thickening of the uterine wall, but no fetus. Ironically---the cyst on my ovary burst on it's own. It's down already from Friday from 2.3 cm to 1.1.

Then I started bleeding. Dammit.

Sherry said I needed to prepare myself: this could be a miscarriage. Or it could be slight spotting. We needed the hormone levels to determine.

Sherry called the lab for my bloodwork results, which weren't in yet. I headed to work.

30 minutes ago she called to say that my hormone levels dropped from the 600's on Friday to the 100's today. I am having a miscarriage. Ouch. Even as I type the word, I feel a tug at my heartstrings.

She said the bleeding will increase over the next few days. And everything should "clear out" on it's own. How horrible!

Next Monday I need to go back for follow-up blood work. As long as my hormone levels are "back to normal," it will mean that Peanut has miscarried fully and my body is returning to normal. If not, we'll pursue D&C.

Sighs. No more waiting game... This sucks!

Need to wipe my tears....wash my face...and return to my 8th graders.


tbonegrl said...

I am so sorry Alana. What would the next step be? Have you thought about seeing a specialist?

We are praying for you.

Busted said...

I'm so sorry. Thinking of you.

Sara said...

So so sorry. Your are in my prayers.

MEB said...

I am so sorry this is happening to you. I hope your HCG goes down fast and you can move on quickly.

Katie said...

I am so sorry for your loss. I will keep you in my thoughts

Linda said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. You are in my prayers

Becky said...

Praying for you right now! I am sorry that you lost your sweet peanut.

Sarah Dee said...

Meghan linked your blog in hers. I just wanted to let you know there are people you have never met who are praying for you and your family. I am so sorry to hear about your loss.

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry for your loss!!! You are in our thoughts and prayers!!


Amie & Burke

Never forgetting Gregory said...

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. It breaks my heart that so many women go through this daily and it is one of the hardest things to deal with in life. I hope you get pregnant again soon and can have a baby in your arms before too long.

Keri said...

I found your blog through a comment you left on Fishsticks...
This is one of the hardest times a mom / woman can go through. I myself have endured 3 miscarriages but have 2 beautiful children to show for my courage and strength to keep trying.
Please give yourself the time to grieve, to get angry, and then to heal. It is not the end of your family dreams... just a postponement.
Please know that you are in my thoughts and you DO have the strength to have your successful pregnancy when it's time.

*soft supportive hugs*